Hey loves. Yes i know ive not been updating my blog lately.. Soo hows life? Well i dont know how to actually explain this. My family recently had a chalet at Costa Sands Resort to celebrate Ayden's first birthday. That little cutie grow up soo fast. Big already dont ask kakak for money k.. Haha.. Mintak Mak.. Well Chalet was fun overall but i have to admit that although im glad to see my whole family gathering but we are gathering in a wrong way. Drinking and so on.. Its fun yes but i dont see the point why we have to get drunk to be open to each other. Some of us are even to shy to reveal our true colours to our own family.. Its like why? And teasing each other. Shouldnt we be supporting one another. Haiya.. And when can we actually gather as a family.. Instead of having another people from Malaysia join in.. I mean like yes they are family too but do they even come here often when the fact we took sooo much time,spending soo much money on transport to travel there every year.. And all they do is wait for our coming and thats it.. Do they come here visit us? No... My family have complicated attitudes.. Some really into sharing and stuff.. Some come once in awhile.. When can i actually see a complete picture of us.. Its been 18 years of my life and i only saw one which is when my parents have not even divorce yet.. ill take a picture of it and post it alright.. ahaha

Well thats one. Yes some of you are asking about me and isa.. Yes i admit okey.. We are really over. I dont really like showing my status of.. Im not proud to be single..I may be contacting guys but im nt ready for a commitment anymore. I feel maybe its best if i stay single and wait for the right one. What me and Isa had was harsh yet beautiful.. 2 years.. sadly.. But its okey.. Im okey with it.. Isa's move on. Heard, i only heard ok, he has been dating.. At least he is taking a step forward.. Im slowly telling people that it ends here. Some of family members still ask... Haiyo.. I dont recognise Isa already too.. Too different in a way that i cant even have a normal conversation. Always must fight. Ever since i think ITE. Ya maybe.. I cant say anything much of Isa. He has this attitude when he wants to be lazy and piss,he will.. Like what do i care attitude you know..Tip for girls,hahaha.. chey no la.. Isa if you are reading this,i want you to know how much this quit in our relationship is harder for me then for you because not about changing my status but quite a bit of my life. I was stupid to priorities you but im learning to stand up on my own. Im very glad you pass by my life at the same i wish i had known you longer before we rush into a relationship 2 years ago. Maybe we rushed right? Im not soo bad to bitch about you or tell girls how awful you treat me but im hoping too you get someone better than me.. I know deep inside you for sure there is still the Isa i know.. If you girls want know.. The first i time i met him,he was a sweetheart.. A guy i could actually be with.. People change soo we cant stop that right. Soo enough of him and let me continue with something else.

I think daddy hates me now.. I dont know la.. Suzanna ade mak bapak tapi im the one chasing you both. I always call Mummy a million times and she'll answer " Nak ape zanna " Its like im annying her. I text daddy.. Every sentence he send me must have exclamation mark.. Yes i dont stay with you daddy and dont visit you already. Think of my travel.. Sengkang.. Kalah pergi sekolah.. Simei nearer. And why am i the only one making an effort to talk to you.. Do you text me how i am?  You know if my grandmother were to pass away.. ( SAYING ONLY ) ill cry... She is like my parents. My mother + my father.. Pamper me really.. But Mak su always rebut her with me..haha.. anyway i need to stop typing.. Too much info huh?? yeah.. Goodnight to you all and may Allah bless you always.. xoxoxo