I decided to update again. I feel disturbed thinking about this over and over again. I know what i feel now but what my mind and my heart is saying is different soo which should i listen most... I feel a little desperate but yet i am not proud of this stupid feeling. Its like "Cmon suzanna you can lead your life single" but im going out almost everday,going home late almost everyday,texting guys who im not sure what for or what the future is going to be..Honestly i don't want to have one.. Im am sick and tired of texting " B where are you" and he dont give a shit about my concern. Calling but ignored. Trying to act like im somebody's girlfriend.. Yes.. Every guy is bloody sweet to any girl for the few months... All this ^^^ Is what my mind is saying..
My heart.. it says that all the pain i go through should be sacrifice just soo that im with him... I love him very much. His family,his mum especially inspires me... How much he thought me to slowly start praying,to believe that i do not need stress in life... Why?? ='(
Everyday i pray for you to wake up and actually give you all the love.. thats all i ever ask... yes i get it sweetheart,we both are busy,we are having exams but does it make sense that you can text me now.. when im not your girlfriend.. but when im yours to keep... ONE TEXT ISA is like a miracle... My goodness... What are you trying to imply here.... Okey im better now... alhamdulilah.. Me and mum are in good terms.. My dad.. cant say la.. My sisters.. i miss them alot! =( Family is planning a trip to Langkawi.. Entah betul ke tak.. hahas... And spammers please,im not his anymore.. Take h im if you want to.. Go ahead... Fck him all u want seriously.. Pathetic despos... You are one slut i cant forget.. Isa is single.. Ambil la... i give up on your stupid emails already..
You know in one email she wrote..
Ill get Isa and for sure he will love me more then he had for you. I know you and his sister are pretty close but soo what Zanna. Ill make sure she likes me!! And ill make sure he is keen to fuck me one day"
DESPO RIGHT? -_-