Hey ho  to all of you babies. hhahahaha.. Im bored. I screwed my VB test. hmph! Die liao. Nvm. Ill try better next year. Speaking of next year,i can believe time go soo fast. In a few weeks time,its 2011 and isa's birthday and my father's birthday and our anniversary and it goes on and on and on.. Insyallah next year would be a better year for me and my family. Everyday i hope and pray that next year is better then this year. I dont want 2011 to be like 2010. I dont like 2010. I meet friends would call themselves friends but they are not. I had fights. Lose Isa once. Got this awful migraine every now and then. And found out what happen to my dear cousin Ain. This is soo wrong. Soo i want next year to be a better year.
I have this problem of being stubborn,lying to myself on what i truly feel. I want to stand up for myself once in a while. Sometimes i prefer silence than a fight but without a fight it seems too quite. Get what i mean. Something more balanced. Yes balanced is the word. I never had a chance to really see happiness because the past keeps coming back. Ouh why? Ya Allah give my family and me an opportunity to really realize that this world means more then just enjoying ourselves with bad influence and shelter us with all the love from everyone we know. Show me if im doing the right thing. Show me if Isa is really the one. Show me if im brave enough to face my future ahead if isa is not with me. Make me stronger.
I want to solat. Bye.. hahaha.. sorry if this is a stupid update.