I forgot the last time i updated. Anyway i watch Eclipse with boyfriend yesterday. We went to Bugis first to survey his watch then had lunch then off to vivo to catch our movie. He find it boring but i find  it okey.. It could be better if its a little longer i guess. We slacked for a while. Had little talks and got home. In the bus,this guy got mad for something. I forgot...ya thats ll of it for yesterday. Three more days away from the day im going to start waking up early and sleeping early because school is starting and im excited to see everyone but also afraid... Afraid to lose someone again. Okey2,enough with the emotional part. My june holidays aren't the best and what i thought it would be. I ended up not going to many events,got sick,home situations and more. You wont believe me if i say i cant wait for fasting month. I just want this year to end faster. This year seems really pressuring for me. Started as a ... Anyway boyfriend is not texting me now.. He is busy i guess. I must trust him,really.. I have to. And and yesterday i wanted to see his phone he wont let me.. I sulk. OF COURSE but then after that he wanted to let me but after that i refuse. I have this good feeling that whatever he did to me was just a beginning. Anything can happen.. Praying soo hard now.  Soo now im thinking if i am doing the right thing... Having to always guess what is your boyfriend doing and praying soo hard that it doesn't involve another bitch..
Okey whatever.. I have made things clear that im going to let my life "move on its own". Appreciate what Allah has given me and just live with it. Being able to live and face all this unnecessary feelings without anyone to actually be there for me is an achievement to me already... I swear i have this very good feeling that a storm is coming into my life because i keep having nightmares at night. Dreams of the people i love dying and leaving me. Okey suzanna stop.. I seriously need to do something else.. Okey bye! Love you all,i promise... =)