I have work today and sadly it was raining and i was super cold and my fever came back. What luck man!
After work,i went home straight away cause i was not feeling good. Ate my medicine,dinner and slept for less then an hour at my sofa in the living room. I feel a little better but my headache is still in my head. Haha.. lol.. that's funny to me.. okey2 where was i... I kind of gotten really down this few days. I cried at night for no reason,i like to be alone. I seem to be like the time when S_ _ _ _ _ _ i left me... I got soo depress and soo weak... Soo helpless... You seem to be near yet far sweetheart.. Im referring to boyfriend,no one else! Its like so empty inside me.. Then i started to got worse thinking that m girlfriends hate me for not messaging none of them or whatever that i normally do to ask how are they. One more thing,mummy seems to be really really nowhere near me.. Its like history repeating itself.
Honestly people,i never had a memorable childhood,I don know how it feels to be in you parents arms all the time. I don know how to look at them and say they were there for me eversince im young. You may think im overreacting BUT try to be in my shoes. The suffer i had when i was young was indescribably. I always say this to myself "its the past"... yes it is but its never going away,its permanent in my life! I've been through a lot.. Just name it... I should stop,its too much. I bet some of my friends will say... Be strong girl or im here for you.. It helps but not a lot.. i know that is the only thing you can do soo im not blaming you darlings... Okey i have to go... I feel like reading... Should do book shopping..=)
I found this for my horoscope
You are in a period Scorpio where secrets and mysteries with romance will perplex you. This will be a situation from your past, and possibly even a foreign connection as well. This is one of those cases where you may never really hear the full truth, and this is a situation where knowing the truth is not going to help you with your romantic situation anyway. You are one that likes to keep secrets as well, and mystery may be your middle name, but it does send you up the bend when you think something is being kept from you. This is a time where you need to let go and just allow yourself to get over this past issue. You can and you should maintain this connection from your past, but this secret or hidden issue does not and should not have a place in your romantic present.
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